Always is a word that almost never should be used

However, with you, you break all the rules

Always you hurt me the second I trust you

Always I give you my vulnerability to you only have it crushed in your hand like a dying ember

Always you break my heart

Always like a fool I come running back for more

Always your promises never coming to fruition; lies seep from your mouth like water from the rock

Always I hope

Always I lie awake at night with only you on my mind

Always the smile you place upon my face is quickly replaced by the sorrowful expression of broken expectations

Always I hope

Always the ghost of our memories by my side, my nights haunted and my days shadowed

Always waiting, always longing, a thirst I cannot quench

Always I hope



Unvaccinated ~ a Poem

Unvaccinated when I met you

Unprepared for the sickness that invaded my body

euphoric at first, i did not notice my symptoms

happiness i called it

not knowing the toxicity that you quietly infected me with

my soul, my stomach, my heart, my muscles; deep

slowly, the pain began, spreading from one organ to another

the inability of my mind to control my limbs, drowning

it was too late,  by the time i realized i was affected beyond a treatment

too late to fix the ravages of what you had done to me

your essence permeating the immune system of my heart

what was i to do now? pray for a swift ending to what i realize now a fatal condition?

death, total and final i prayed for; death of any lasting memory of you

darkness of recollection in what used to be my only source of light

this parting is not a sweet sorrow

you have left me with only the bitter and metallic taste of what could have been